Hi! I'm eleven years old, but I act more mature than that, and I am the nerdiest, weirdest, loudest, tomboyish, musical, and creative kid in my grade. I'm not bragging, people really do say that. I have auburn hair and blue grey/ blue green with flecks of brown for an eye color (They change in the light.) I'm about 5' 4", and I'm clumsy as hell. I'm a weirdo, and I'm more of a loner. I car about my grades a lot. Imma music nerd, social studies need, science nerd, writing nerd, and grammar nerd. I'm nerdy and I know it! :D but most people think that I'm only a good singer. But I can stand up for my rights, and I'm a natural born leader. All of my friends say that if I was a demigod, my father would be Ares. I love hard rock and hate pop music. Well, exempting Glee and Owl City or course! My friends think I'm crazy because I have some hardcore anger issues. I just realized how many classmates at school I scare. (Whoopsie =]) And also because I was diagnosed with anxiety and certain parts of Asbergers Syndrome last year. I have a really big vocabulary, so most of the time no one knows what I'm talking about. Heheheheh xD I confuse my peeps a lot.
There's something that you need to know about me, everyone thinks I'm this kind, pretty, creative, straight A student. And I have no flaws whatsoever. I can't blame them, I always come to school with a smile on my face and I make people laugh, and I laugh when I'm supposed to... Sometimes. But they're wrong. Completely wrong. I was bullied badly last year, to the point of attempting to commit suicide every few weeks, but always chickening out. My parents don't even know. The friends who do know (and A LOT do, I'm pretty open with it) say that I'm so brave, and strong for living through that and coming out with no physical damage at all. I always tell them that I'm just like everyone else who had done what I did, nothing more. But on the inside I still hurt really badly :'(. Lately I've been laying awake in bed just thinking what if I had done it? What would happen? How would it effect everyone else in the world? Hell, what would happen if I wasn't even alive? I realized that I wouldn't have inspired several people. My mom always told me, I change so many people's lives. That's all she said when I was little, but now she's exclaimed herself a lot more. She said that I'm such a likable person, and with my unique view point on the world, I show people how to take a careful look at things. We all can change people's lives our own ways.
If you follow me I'll follow you, and I'm always here for advice if you need it, just comment it, and I'll figure out a way to get back to you. Promise :). But all I wanted to say is. You are amazing, loving, smart, and unique in your own way. If your in a bad place... Stay.Strong.Really.Strong! Because I realized... Once you hit rock bottom, you can only go up.