"I am eighteen and don't know what I want"
Dont know what to do in life or who to share my life with. I used to be social but its become less and less to the point I have no real friends and I am lonely and depressed. I feel lost. never have had a girlfriend. I am too anti social. If I could say what I felt than all would be right. I want to have someone to just talk to. But, no one I know feels like me so I am alone. Music is my best friend. without my depression I would never have discovered all these awesome bands. So I am thankful for that.But I am still depressed, I hope to find a girlfriend or friend who will just listen or let me hear, the deep stuff the thoughts of life and problems in general. I am tired of small talk, I need a true friend. Life gets harder as it goes on and "ohh the years burn" . So I wait and hope for a brighter future because right now I feel like I am "Down in a Hole" and loosing control. Heaven let your light shine down. So I wait searching above for what I need.