THIS IS A PIECE I WROTE. I feel like this place is over due. Like it should bring back good but it only brings the worst. I feel like i should be misunderstood and hated it sucks. Everywhere I turn there is terror and fright. Down every road. I must be making the wrong choices but something is missing. I need something that will never return. The feeling of being safe faded away. What have I done i feel it's all my fault. No matter how much comfort I may get it never helps. Every good memory is gone there's nothing left. It is just a monster left and I have to face the fact that I am a monsters daughter. There is sadness and the fact that I have to live through life with pain. There is no where and no one to turn to anymore. I can't trust anyone. My brain is gonna explode. Things have been bad lately. You say you have it hard because your parents are divorced,my nana has cancer again but is in stage four. It started in her breast and went to her bones. I need someone to hug me so hard and put me back together. I need to let it out for once. I need to live like I'm dying and not have a care in the world. Even though I understand someone has it harder than me I'm broken down emotionally. I read a lot of books because I feel someone else's pain. I can relate to their life of heart breaks. But the one thing i haven't found is "my world" or "my mystery". Like people have a safe feeling in a world created or when there is something to figure out that may help. I'm getting the danger and the stuff before but I'm not getting the clues. I have to find them soon. Maybe there are no clues but in my mind there are clues for everyone to everything.